I am not yours

Adv choir sang that song last year for competition. i never found these words true unti today. it hit me so quick. im hurting so bad. i want to be yours, but im not. you hurt me so bad. you played me good, ill give you that. you cant even be my friend, you cant even be around me. i feel like i cant even hang out with my friends in the choir room b/c your there, you might get mad im there or something. you broke my heart. i've never felt this before. you played with me for a good month, then dropped me right after break, and from there you just kept kicking me. now im in the ditch, and your judt putting dirt into it. why cant you just talk to me and tell me whats wrong. i just wish things would go back the way they use to be. im so sad, nothing can make me better. i just cry now. i never cry. i fuckin sobbed over you. ask anyone who was there. i didnt just cry, i hella sobbed. i hope you still come to our concert, and at least cheer for me. i still love you, and you will always be my honey bunches of oats. do you remember that? i hope you do. i hope we work this out. i miss you