Random Thoughts

Hiiii.. so this is like my first blog.. ever. Hamed and Mia were talking about it so i decided to try it out. So yeah... summer is almost over and im kinda sad. A lot of my friends who graduated are moving on to college all over the place, and it makes me sad because i dont like losing touch with people. I got really close with alot of them and now im afraid i wont see them unless its a random visit home. on the other hand, i know my best friends aren't going to abandon me. I found my bests friends this summer and have gotten really close to them, and now cant imagine my life without them. Its weird, but all my best friends and i didnt get along when we first met. with hamed, i just thought he was another flaker who thought choir was just an easy A, and he wasnt gonna come to class or help us out at all. but then we started talking (how i dont remember) and he's become someone i can depend on. i go to him all the time for advice or if i need to be cheered up because people dont tret me right. he's my bay bee daddy and i love him. HOMO BESTS FOR LIFE! with kim, it wasn't that we didnt like each other. it was that i was intimidated by her. my sophmore year of choir, we went to hawaii to compete. i felt like Kim was one of those snobby girls who was too cool to be a friend to someone like me, but that only made me even more skeptical. haha i dont know, but then musical came along, and we became brothers, literally. we would have serious talks about sexual orientation and how far we've gone during breaks and stuff. haha. then one night we went to a party together, and that was SO much fun. i was so gone it was hella funny. i didnt stop talking and i became a jabawokee =] after that we became hella close and now she's the love of my life.With andrew, we never hated each other. our friendship was random. he joined 2 of my choirs so i guess i was forced to talk to him. then we just clicked and we became hellla close really fast. he's my best friend, and now he's my husband, who cheats on my with men hahaha! but you gotta love him. with jan, i met her my sophmore year. she would always come to my chemistry class after 7th period to met lawrence. i thought she was crazy cuz she was so hyper. then she joined choir and we met formally. i dont remember how we became close either, but she's my babygay and other half and i love her for it =] mia and mix are my newest additions to my circle of best friends. Mia was my fellow soprano, but we never really talked. i think we started talking this summer, and im glad for it. shes so funny and is my inspiration!! i still need to make her a nickname, but we're both bad at it so we're stuck for now haha. I met Mix at show choir tryouts. we were in the same group. he was so cute! i would date him if he was straight. then we started hanging out this summer and i love him. he is just so much fun to be around its the best! i think its weird for me to be hanging out with almost all juniors. 5/6 friends i have are juniors. im use to hanging out with older people, but i guess theres always time for change. another thing on my mind is choir. oh boy is that on my mind right now. we start school in a little less than 3 weeks, which means i will be officially in charge of 30 sopranos. IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND! i have no idea what im doing, what im suppose to do, or how im going to do it! WHAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO!?! everyone keeps telling me, "its okay Keli, your gonna be fine. your hella good you got this. dont worry, your gonna be fantastic." although the support is great, and it makes me feel a little better, im still scared shitless. Im being compared to 2 of the greatest section leaders ever! im afraid im gonna bomb and disappoint them, shane-o, and worst of all my sopranos. MY sopranos! its MY job to make them good. MY job to make sure they do their best. MY job to make them winners. how do i do that? what if they dont like me? what if they revult and decide to not try and then im to blame becasue i cant motivate them to do anything. it's such a scary thought to be in charge of someone else. i know its not a life or death thing, but if you were a choir geek like me, its pretty damn close. Advanced choir has won 1st and gold 2 years in a row, i dont want it to be MY fault we cant keep that tradition going. its just crazy. im not even scared for my last year in highschool. all the SATS and college apps. im just scared to fail in choir, and be known as the worst section leader ever. so yes these are my random thoughts. hope you enjoy =]